To be honest, I am really sad about the snow already melting. I feel as though it is literally dampening my spirit, because all day today I was moody and down, my energy lessening every time I saw melting snow fall off the roof across the street. Last year, we got at least a week of snow before it started melting (although, I have to admit I am grateful we didn’t suffer frozen pipes this year).
There have also been other reasons why I’ve been pessimistic today. In the last week and a half, I’ve been going on daily walks to improve my sleep and practice my sisu, but I’ve quickly grown bored of the same route and same scenery. I live in an apartment sandwiched between a busy main road and a suburb development, so I can’t go anywhere on foot that isn’t surrounded by people, buildings, cars, and noise. I can even hear traffic when I’m at my local nature preserve. I tune it out at best, but at worst is days like today where I feel stifled. I don’t feel alone in feeling this way after hearing the stories of Leena Henningsen, Kalle Flodin, Christine Kjær, Jonna Jinton and many others who felt exactly as I do now when they lived in the city.
I almost didn’t include all this in the post because I thought it would weigh it down, but I don’t want to put on a façade and pretend that I’m always happy. Today, I didn’t go on a walk and I didn’t do my daily yoga. Instead, I worked on this post, baked cookies, and played Skyrim and Genshin Impact.
I am grateful it snowed here at all this year. It is a gift. I will let these emotions come and go and lighter emotions will take their place. Until then I will just let it be what it is.
I hope you’re having a wonderful day or night and that you enjoyed your Imbolc if you celebrated. We’ll talk soon 💙
Hugs
Julia 💙