It’s been almost two weeks since I wrote a blog post! But I’m back now
February has been kind of mental for me. Mercury Retrograde started on January 30th, which I started feeling really quickly. My website had some technical issues, my floor lamp was flickering the other day (which it has never done before and the bulb is still new), my salt lamp flickered last night, and the wire on my fairy lights broke. Thankfully I had another set of fairy lights so I restored the hygge immediately! I think I may be extra-affected by the retrograde since I’m a Virgo sun, and Virgo is ruled by Mercury… AND Mercury was in the sign of Virgo when I was born. I hope you’re still with me
Along with the tech issues, communication has been wonky. Long story short, Joel told me he’s not ready to move up north since work is going so well. He wants to advance his career as a massage therapist which I love and admire.
But I was fixated on moving out of this apartment, being able to go outside, having a snowy winter this year. When I realized that wasn’t going to happen I felt like my dream future was gone. I took a couple of days to let the grief run it’s course and then I somehow started shifting from reactivity to proactivity. What sparked that was seeing a tiny house post on Pinterest, which got me to think “If I want to live my own life I need to build my own tiny house”. But unfortunately, that would be too costly to do on my own, and I think at that point I was still upset and just wanted to be by myself. Now that I’ve cooled down and have gotten level-headed again, I’ve realized, why don’t Joel and I build a tiny house together here in Texas? He’s wanted to do that for as long as we’ve been together, and even though I’ve gone back and forth about it, it was really dependent on my situation at the time of my life. So without getting too much more into it, that’s our current plan! Which is of course subject to change, as is everything.
Recently, I started pursuing something that has always been in the back of my mind – voice acting! Last year, Joel told me about a video game that was being made that needed voice actors, but it’s not until now that I feel capable of doing it. It’s not paid work, in fact no one involved is being paid. It’s all fan work. But I don’t mind at all, I just want to do it for fun. I realized that I can’t go to my grave knowing I never did voice acting at least once. So, here is me sitting in my walk-in closet since it’s the most sound-proof room in the apartment, recording my auditions!
Joel and I celebrated Valentine’s Day a little early this year since he has to work on the actual day. I made some heart chocolates and we had fondue with cranberry walnut bread, apples, and sausage He also convinced me to FINALLY watch The Matrix for the first time and it is now one of my favorite movies. It only took 8 1/2 years to get me to watch it 😅
And despite it being the coldest part of winter where I am in Texas, Joel and I have been taking serious advantage of the Ben & Jerry’s sale at the grocery store. These are just two of my victims. Does anyone else have no problem eating things like ice cream during the winter but can’t bear the thought of eating heavy/warming foods during the summer?
So, that’s what has been going on recently for me! But in reality, a lot of the goings-on happen in my head. Trying to overcome fears, improve my diet, forge better thought patterns, etc. My life at the moment is rather uneventful on the outside, but I know one day soon I’ll be able to let out all of this energy and use it in a constructive way.
I hope February is going well for you, and that Mercury Retrograde isn’t affecting you too much! Sending love your way ♥ Talk soon!